Monday, May 27, 2013

Grassy Fields and Alabaster Ranks


As it has every year before, my day always ends here. The patterns that bring me here are the same, the day’s events unfolding in a predictable way. It’s always a long day for me, a day where I am exercised to my fullest extent, appreciated and recognized. Despite my many tasks on this day it is definitive that while the sun creeps low on the horizon my feet will find their way to these grassy fields.

The morning comes early for me as I silence the alarms and begin the daily routine. I go with many to work, no different from any other morning. Their pursuit of happiness, providing security and stability, thankful they have the opportunity to do so. It’s always a slow day, this day. While they work others are hard at play in their own pursuit.

Later in the day I go with them as well. I enjoy the BBQ ribs and potato salad, the cold beer, warm sun, the time spent with family, friends, and neighbors. I revel in the cool breeze and spray of the lake, the skiing and swimming. Listening to the laughter and joy around me I am heartened to be appreciated so.

As the day winds down, the coolers drained, boats docked, embers ebb to ash in the grills; it is then that my feet begin to wander. They take me out to rolling fields of green grass and purple dusky skies. I look around and see husbands and wives, parents and children, all huddled together in their small groups.  I see men and women in uniform being thanked by total strangers for their service. These same soldiers offering solace and condolences to the huddled groups standing vigil, giving their own private salute to the alabaster soldiers in ranks spanning the grassy fields.

I watch these scenes unfold with mixed feelings of sympathy and pride. These people, these families and soldiers understand the depth of my price; they have lived it, fought for it, and many gave their lives for it. I am Freedom; Freedom from tyranny and oppression, freedom to believe and praise in your own way, freedom to pursue happiness, freedom to choose to do with as you will. With every name etched into stone, every white stone cross marking a hero of freedom, with every man and woman sworn to their country that still fight, I am bought and paid for. They deserve respect and gratitude every day, but this day we set aside to honor their service and their memory in recognition of everything they set aside so that we may do so.

Friday, May 24, 2013

ID# 93461


Day 630 of my captivity. I’ve come to realize this is not a prison but some form of opportunistic concentration camp. They neglect no race or creed but seek to dominate any within the compound. They tease us with inescapable glass walls so that we me stare freedom in the face each day, yet never reach beyond the pitted and shoe polish adorned cells.
  As they begin the daily parade of interrogators sent before me each day I begin to suspect they are trying to wear down my mental stability. What seem to be perfectly lucid strangers delve off into unseemly and unpredictable fits of idiocy. I am subjected to screaming tantrums, bouts of inconsolable grief and anguish, pretentiousness, sarcasm, elitism, slander; a steady cavalcade of emotional torture all while obligated to maintain courteous composure in scripted responses that never change despite the variety of situations that arise. This can only be a form torture designed to test and break down my sense of self. Perhaps the most disturbing realization is I believe it is working.I am rewarded for my benign robotic behavior each week with a piece of paper with my name on it and some numbers. I’ve been conditioned over time to appreciate and even desire these numbers. Oh, how I wish there were more of them. 
Perhaps the cruelest act taken by the oppressors is in giving me a brief respite each day; time enough to nearly pull myself back together. Just as I begin to regain a semblance of my former self I am thrust back into the berating stream of sycophants, firmly planted in wait for more verbal water boarding. Delving still further into the sadistic nature of the oppressors, I am forced to document each encounter, taking the verbal assault and then recording it verbatim to ensure maximum retention, thusly ensuring I fully understand the spectrum of my piteous existence.  Need I mention this allows for the most vicious of these encounters to be readily retrieved so that I may relive them at the oppressors’ leisure?
 Unbeknownst to my captors I have broken through and established communication with the outside world through my documentation device. This brief ray of hope was soon smothered as I found the only hope of deliverance would be to escape, only to be bound to yet another stint of monetary servitude, prisoner exchange if you will. Oh look, the man with the numbers is coming. Maybe it’s not so bad after all.